I continue on living.

It has been several attempts and thinking about ending my life.

The reason is i feel inadequate and just not enough, mostly after seeing other people's life on social media.

A feeling of being left.
Alone and underachieved.

I guess, it is important to not always look at others.
To really understand, what we need and what we can do.
Irregardless of what others achieve and have.

Let go of the self

Can we be excluded by title.
Can we just introduce ourself as name and just be.

Heck can we just be without anything.
Present.

When you've been through depression and losing sense of everything, sense of self, sense of the self.

Social media is still hecking what the fuck for me.

Public display of action.
Can we just be happy with nothing.
Simple things.

Demolish everything. My whole image.
Public display of nothingness.

https://youtu.be/pvgfucVF5cU

Welcome to public display of nothingness

It may or may not contain a thing.
This is the place where you're stripped down to place where you're just a self, a being.

Without any agenda or title.
Where you're just you.
Not even a name, not even an adjective to describe.

Can we be okay to introduce ourself without bagage.

Where it's okay if you're lost or found.
Welcome home :)

What if

I remembered a quote which implied whether "what if" is delusionally haunting.

but I'm not sure in this case.

this what if is hopefully closer to ephiphany.

What if I don't want anything in life?

What if life is just like playing in a big all-you-can-get-if-you-try-hard in a nick of time.

Next thing we know, we've already reached a point in life where the past seems just feel like a brief moment.

What makes human wants something?

like something?

what makes us tick?

why do we compare?

what is the right and best way to live?

what are we scared of?

I've heard if we asked to much it will trap us in a spiral where these questions are endless and answerless.

everything feel so bland.

why do we have lots of possession?

to be continued...

You are Me. Me is You

All journey leads to One. All question melts. All worries and anxieties are washed. InsyaAllah.

This is a journey towards God.
No need to compare.
No need to be perplexed.

Bismillah.
May I always remember this.
May I always remember and be You.

Adult talk

Why oh why amidst of a wedding,
They lost flavor of life.
We exchange How r u, "sehat?", how's your kids going, what's up, where do you go to work?

Are people that boring?
How come we become flat?
What did we talk bout before?

Can we ignite something, talk about random things instead?

Karl Marx's thinking perhaps,

Oh what a happy wedding.
Yas.
Everything's good everything's fine.

I think they might be also more than that. Deeper.

Or maybe am i the one who swim too deep?

Well let's enjoy oneself company shall we? ;)

D8 u

Dating at 29: Actually I don't do dates or romance other than with myself. But it seems like our soul has been in love like forever, ready to take it physical? Dude, i mean let's just walk in the park first, hand in hand is possible but let's just rather talk about sweet nothing shall we.

Photo credit: consciousbaeapp

But, you're the Only Guy tho. Dun have no other

https://youtu.be/OAfxs0IDeMs

Terima kasih Mbak Melna, virus 80s rock balladnya 😍

Sept 10, 2016
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